I don't care if it hurts, I want to have control. I want a perfect body... I want a perfect soul

Happy Monday everyone!

Hope you had a lovely weekend. Sorry I have been awol this weekend as Ive had some bad news and I havent had the energy to update.

Quick post today with my outfit from Saturday and todays (Sundays clothing doesnt even count as an "outfit"- think old leggings and an old t shirt, with pink slipper sock- shexsy!).

so on Saturday I had to take Jas to a classmates birthday party, I wanted some comfort but didnt want jeans...so I went for:



Floral tunic dress- Next via ebay...I have worn this a before on the day I couldnt find my camera but with tights which I instantly regretted as its a tad short! So I teamed it this time with black/blue jeggings, my black belt tied at the waist (love wearing this like this now lol),



my black ruffle pumps from Tescos and wore my green (p)leather bomber jacket and green scarf when I went out. I wish I had worn a cardi with this as the hall the party was held in was freezing so I had cold arms and feet when I got home.



Today wanted to wear a skirt but its mega windy out there so I had to go with something a bit more fitting than floaty. Im wearing:





Denim tulip skirt- Oasis via ebay, white wrap shirt- Peacocks rescued from the work wardrobe, tied in a bow at the side, Black cami under and black leggings, my Argyle knee high socks from Next and my brown biker boots. I wore my green jacket and scarf off Saturday when I went out. Its getting too warm here for a big coat but too cold for a thinner one!

Im wearing for the first time my new butterfly necklace:



Its only a Primark one but I bought it off ebay for only 49p, I really like it.

Anyway not much to say today, but remember you can still enter my giveaway until Wednesday this week, just leave a comment and let me know what your favourite tiem of clothing is and why. I will reveal the winner on Thursdays blog post! Good luck!

Have a great day everyone! x

I don't claim to be perfect - I know I'm damaged goods, but I wanna be let out of darkness, just like every lady would

Happy Friday everyone!

Yeah! This week has gone so quick for me...Im looking forward to the weekend especially Sunday as the boys of the house are off to the footie (Sunderland v Man city) and Jas is at the in laws so its just going to be meeee.....all alone on Mothers day! Reiss asked me the other day what my perfect present was and I said some peace and quiet haha, look like I got it! I will have to think of things to do with myself!

I have received my first award! Yay!



I received this from the lovely Alex of http://oddsocksandprettyfrocks.blogspot.com/. I am supposed to share my fantasy bag with you all..erm ok here goes.


Ok I must admit Im not a designer whore.I dont hanker after any of the Spring/ Summer fashions that were on the catwalk and I dont (*gasps of horror) really give a damn about London fashion week.....but when it comes to bags I have big dreams. And I dream of a Chloe! Ever since I saw a picture of a Paddington I have wanted one, and currently this is my favourite!



A snip at a mere £895, I can buy 2 right?? Ah a girl can dream cant she? Actually to be honest if I did have that money to spend I would have a problem with my conscience buying something that expensive, I would have to donate the equivelant to chairty..... but its soooo pwetty!!!

I think Im supposed to tag some others in this so I nominate the lovely Laura from http://www.adaisychaindream.blogspot.com, D from http://heart-shaped-bruise.blogspot.com and Charlotte from http://charlotte-lifesaboutthejourney.blogspot.com...so girls confess whats your dream bag?? Apologises I dont know how to do fancy link like the others lol


So onto todays outfit I am laughing in the face of the wind and rain today and wearing something springlike. I will probably regret this when I come home this afternoon freezing and soaked but heyho!

Im wearing:



Long tshirt top from ebay tucked into a cream, pink and green patterned skirt. I wasnt too sure if this would work as the top is a baggy shape so I have belted it in with a chunky stretchy belt. thick tights were needed and all the colours I have didnt match so I opted for black.



Green mary jane shoes as I didnt want to wear boots (again).



My lovely in laws got me this necklace for Christmas, I love it as it has an antique/ vintage look to it.



I tied my hair back as theres not much point in this weather trying to do it as it tangles up so easily. I wore my blue mac when I went out.




I wanted to share another little something I got from my lovely mother in law. She actually gave me this to ebay but i decided it was far too nice for that and it goes really well on my slouchy bag. Its an oversized bag charm with flowers and a little bird. I have also attached a brooch I bought a while ago from Char at trexesandtiaras..I think it goes well.


So...onto my mini giveaway...its not much but a few little things I thought would be appreciated to celebrate my getting to 20 followers:


The winner will receive:



Green sequin scarf, Snake skin print card wallet from Accesorize, some body lotion and shower gel from the body shop in White Musk and sweet Clementine body scrub (smells yummy!). A purple sparkley make up/toiletry bag to put it all in. And a lovely black hairband with sequin bow.

All you need to do to enter is leave a comment for me below and let me know what is your favourite piece of clothing and why?

So enough from me after this mega long post! Enjoy your day no matter what you do :)

Ps you can enter my giveaway til Wednesday next week when I will announce a winner Good luck!:)

My odds are stacked.... I'll go back to black ....

Happy Thursday everyone!

Suns shining again and the weatherman has predicted the temperatures will reach the giddy heights of 10 degree this afternoon...oh my that feels positively tropical after the past few months! just a quick outfit post today as I have so much to do this morning!

Yeah.... so.... as the title suggest I have gone back to black...I cant help it its an affliction I must live with...and I cant live without black! so given that I'm supposed to be pushing myself I teamed todays black with some colour. Excuse my face as I have no eye make up on since my hayfever seems to have started early booo!!

I'm wearing:



Black skirt with rose print- Primark purchased last week.
Black v neck top- again Primark
green tights- oops Primark again..
pink scoop neck cardigan- Peacocks- ancient but I love it- it has a tie waist but I tied this at the back.



Black ruffle front pumps- Tescos.




Imitation pearl necklace with gold bow- Asda (Im also wearing pearl drop earrings that match this).

So there you go. A very girlie twirly outfit today :)

I promise I will have the giveaway up soon...dotn get too excited it will onyl be an ickle one...and I also promise to try and post about something other than my clothes...maybe I will show you how far our seedlings have come tomorrow or something? lol

Have a good day everyone :)

Baggy Trousers......

Happy Wednesday everyone!

Sun is shining and Ive been very productive this morning. Still cold (feel like its always going to be cold) but I always feel cheerier when the sun is out. I have done my food shop, bought birthday presents for a party on Saturday tidied up and hung the washing outside for the first time this year!

Todays outfit is casual again but no jeans so thats a bonus! I find it really hard to put a pretty dress on when I know Im not going anywhere special so its an effort not to reach for the jeans every morning. Excuse the circles under my eyes some lovely birds decided it was time for me to wake up at 5 this morning!

Today Im wearing:





brown checked wide leg trousers: Asda
white wrap shirt: Peacocks
grey lambswool tank top: Primark (somewhat stretched as I washed it on a too high setting- oops)
Long butterfly necklace
long earrings with purple discs



Purple patchwork wedge shoes- Clarks via ebay (I love these shoes and dont wear them enough), sorry for the dodgy pose couldnt get a good pic of them!



Grey nails by collection 2000 was found in a bargain bucket at Tescos yesterday at only 99p.

I will probably change the shoes for flats later as I want to take Jasmine out on her bike and these wedges however comfy, are not good for running after a 3 year old in!


Finally I thought I would share my winnings with you.



This little parcel came the other day courtesy of Alex at oddsocksandprettyfrocks blog...along with the make up and scarf she added a pair of love earrings which Im so pleased with as everyone was going on about them! So thank you Alex!

Have a good day in the sun everyone :)

Just another manic Monday.....

Happy Monday everyone! Doesnt that come round quick eh?

I feel like Im playing catch up at the minute with everything, but the sun is shining (even though there is frost on the gorund- but Im looking upwards not down lol). We went to the beach yesterday and it was so warm we had to take our coats off (good indication for a hot summer? Well thats debatable but it was lovely). As such my outfit was casual and comfy the 2 words that seem to rule my weekend outfits.

I wore (and excuse the inane look on my face! I dont know why either!):




Flared faded blue jeans: Next
white vest: Primark
Strawberry print jumper: New Look via ebay.
Fake uggs (not seen): Priceless...I only really wear these to the beach or down the fields as I can stick them straight in the washer after.


Todays outfit is slightly better but I didnt chose it...I will explain...last night I had a major strop when I opened my wardobe to a sea of skirts, dresses and trousers, and my mind went totally blank, I had to arrange an outfit for today last night as i knew I would be up and out early.....but what to wear?? After a long time pulling things out and putting them back again I was in a grump, so shutting the door I turned to Jamie and decided that HE would choose me an outfit! "Madness" I hear you cry?? Well maybe! My Oh does have style and taste but hes very much a lazy boy that will wear the first thing that comes out of the wardrobe (he went to work dressed top to toe in black today)...so I thought if anything it would give me a laugh seeing him try but I think he came up good!



Im wearing: floral and paisley print dress: Peacocks sale.
Raspberry tights: Primark
black cami: Next
Ruched cropped cardigan: ebay
green shell necklace and matching earrings: Primark
Black belt: taken from the black and white dress I wore the other day.
brown biker boots: Aldo via ebay.


What do you think? the boy did good eh? Yes there is a teeny tiny discretion to this outfit in that the dress is technically black (could be blue if you squint at it in the right light and turn your head away from the sun?) but I reckon that it *could* be allowed since the edge of the dress is actually green?? Mmmm Im sure I will get told off fo this, if so it wasnt me it was him! LOL.

Seriously though I would urge anyone to challenge their partners/friends to choosing them an outfit! If anything it will give you a laugh at the look of terror on their faces at that request!

On to other matters, I have been looking though my box of old summer clothes that a wee bit too big for me. Rather than sell/ donate them then have to buy a whole new lot again I have decided to try my hand at adapting them for my size now. So I have a few items that I will post over the next few days to gauge an opinion on what (and how) to do with them. So first up is this skirt:




I bought this in the Next sale a few years ago. It is a size 14 but too big for me so will have to take the waist in. However I like the fabric of it (its like a crinkly cotton) and its lovely and cool for the summer, but I dont like the shape of it...its too...I dunno... full? Im wondering if I could maybe make it into a pair of loose cullottes? do you think that would work? I would have to take away some of the fabric to do this then split it in the middle and sew up....Thats the idea but Im no dressmaker though I can sew...so any tips/ suggesations would be most appreciated! I dont want to end up with a pair of shorts that would suit a pensioner going on a coach trip! lol

And lastly I found this little gem in my summer box!





Its not one of the bigger things I bought it last year off ebay before I started dieting as I loved it so much but at a size 12 I didnt give myself much hope of getting into it...fast forward almost 12 months and it fits! Its a strapless sun dress which can also be worn as a skirt as it has a stretchy band top, it has a lovely crocheted effect on the hem ...I cant wait for it to be warm enough to wear this!



Just to end I am working on a giveaway which should be ready hopefully this week to celebrate the blog reaching 20 followers- woohoo- watch this space!

Have a great day everyone! x

Stand by my accusations, I'll come clean I don't need no vice....

Happy Saturday everyone!

Sorry for being AWOL the past 2 days my lovely OH decided to take the camera to work with him yesterday so no pics for me! And life has been busy as usual so this is the first chance I have had to sit down and update!

Anyway I will post my outfit from Thursday-officially day one of the no black waistdown challenge (dum de dumm dumm!!) I must admit Im already struggling with this as my black leggings are my default piece of clothing if Im unsure of something!

Anyway I didnt go all out there with colour Im afraid! I wore:



Blue skinny jeans- New Look via ebay
pink cami top- so old cant remember!
nude coloured chiffon ruffle front blouse- this is from my former bigger days- its an 18 (eep) but its so floaty I can still get away with wearing it now as a looser style (beleive me it was'nt loose before!)- and since nudes are in now I thought I would try and bring it back to life.
purple and pink snakeskin pumps- Priceless- love them for cheapy shoes!



Green leather look bomber jacker- about 99p off ebay.
green and silver scarf
brown and gold thread slouchy hat



So there you go not a pick of black in sight! Ok so not as adventurous as some but I like it!

I went to the big Primark at the Metro Centre on Thursday as I wanted to get a couple of basics. Well I did get basics but a couple of other things too (oops). I got:



Rose print skirt with gold waistband. Bottle green tights (50p) they say Khaki on the pack but they are green.



2 basic vests one white, one black. Saw the other vest on the left and couldnt resist it- it has got a butterfly back afterall! At only £4.00 its a bargain!



Basic black v neck (I love these basic tops they wash really well) one stripey v neck top (thinking can nautical this up?lol)



Ditsy print vest with tie shoulders and a stack of green stretchy bangles- just because lol.

So a mini haul, but I have been doing a lot of mini hauling at the minute and its all adding up! Im going to have to become pennywise again and rein myself in. I have realised I now own more than enough stuff to mix and match, I could do with some more basic vest etc when the summers here but that still seems a long time off!

I have a few things left over from my bigger days that I am thinking of talioring to suit me now. I will endevour to post some pics of these items over the next few day to see what you think and how I could alter or refashion them!

Have a great Saturday night everyone!

Static and silence and a monochrome vision......

Happy Wednesday everyone!

Hope you are all well.I mananged to buy some party invitation this morning (butterfly ones haha) and was very good did not go home via all the clothes shops or even upstairs to the clothes department at Tescos...went in got invite's and came home *polishes halo and feels smug*. So thats one thing ticked off the list for Jasmine's birthday party!

Todays outfit is totally unispired I pulled it all out this morning and thought that matches I will wear that. Im not going anywhere this afternoon just cleaning etc so comfy fits the bill.

Im wearing: Black and white swirl print jersey dress- Next via ebay. I have a love/hate relationship with this dress, on one hand I love it for its comfy stretchy jersey and the print, on the other I hate it when it clings so much and shows off all my bulges! This came with the black belt I am wearing with it...but it had no less than 5 belt loops around it which made the belt sit too high for my liking so I cut them all off. Becasue of this I have nowhere to tuck the end of the belt in...so I belted it and looped it over into a knot effect...I think it looks quite good.






Over this I wore a cropped ruched sleeve cardi I bought from ebay the other day.
Black leggings which are a staple in my life and my black pumps bought from Tescos the other day.




Jewellery is a long necklace with black and silver beads, small square black studs and a chunky bangle.



All very matchy matchy and all very safe! I wish I could experiment more with colour but Im so scared of getting it wrong!

I realy feel I should set myself some sort of challenge with regards to these black leggings as I alway seem to fall back on them, and given I have some lovely coloured tights now I maybe should push myself to start wearing them? What do you think- do you want to set me a challenge for a week that will bring me out of my (black) comfort zone? All suggestions appreciated!

Have a good day everyone :)